Living Inside My Head

Yesterday to forgive, tomorrow to love. I guess I’m being unreasonable or maybe… hopeful. I don’t know. Why should things like that have to matter? Somebody is always… I just remembered something precious. What was it? It was about someone very special. When I think about him, I feel that something important has to be deal with. About my feelings… can I believe in them? Trust… What a sweet word. But it is something I cannot readily give away so easily. Not to anyone… So why does he has such an effect on me? Maybe because I see myself in him. But are we the same in the first place? If you would be by my side… That person, did I see him from within my heart? I wonder if I can fall in love with him. My wish… Yes, that is our wish. Wishes do come true. Please, bequeath this wish even if today’s memories go away. Let them reach him. It doesn’t matter how long it will take because that time will surely come…a...

It was never been easy growing up with a sense of being an ‘inferior’. It constantly reminds me of a well-known fact– that we humans, no matter how powerful or famous we are on earth, are just insignificant specks when exposed to the vastness of the universe. And when they die, they take with them nothing. People are different from each other- have different beliefs, different ways of life and different mindsets- but they are similar in one thing: they do not know what they really want. …And it’s very hard to please them. You feed them with knowledge, with principles, with goodness, but they still crave for more even though they feel like already throwing up. How pathetic. When I’m alone, I always reflect on so many things and always find for something that will raise my curiosity. I have been shy all my life, and almost contemptuously labelled this as an ‘emotional disability’. It may sound pathetic to other people, but this perhaps is t...

When is the last time you believed in the power of the stars To grant your deepest wishes? When is the last time you felt the courage To trust the people around you? You always fight, was it for someone’s sake? But how many times have you fallen? Your thirst for conflict unable to be quenched By an oasis called peace of mind? Because you always push your self You lose sight of what is dear to you. But your gaze always seemed to look far away And I felt that I wanted to protect you. So many people, so many to care for A life full of love and adventures But I can’t seem to take my mind off you Why do I keep on worrying about you? I dreamed of white wings, they are so beautiful… They are the legacy of love between two different people So why do you keep them from the world? The way you keep your wounded heart from my eyes. When I fall in the deepest part of a crevice Will you spread your wings again and take my hand? Feathers falling in beautiful cascades...

I don’t know you but we are kindred spirits You don’t know my sorrows but I’m sure we have the same There are times when all colors seem to fade Head bowed low and shattered heart bleeds just like that. At last, you are free enough to talk About this life that you had never spoke about About the road that only you could walk And about a world that only you could see. We are stranded in a dreamworld, can’t escape from this foolish illusion I guess people are all innocent fools Believing in things that can only be seen by their own eyes But rarely trust what is hidden from their sight. But you differ from others, for you have the most sensitive soul But I’m no different from you, for I’ve been in pain for so long too We search for purpose, we search for the truth We want to be happy, but can’t find true happiness. But somehow, I know there will be light After a time of darkness and grey clouds Cry no more, smile, and think about your blessings Because you are not alone And will always b...