Living Inside My Head

  The banner speaks everything. Hmm. I'm thinking of going. The last time I went to the Balloon Festival was in 2009. Very disappointed. I didn't even get to see a single balloon flying. They were just being inflated and that's it. But that was quite understandable because we went there in the afternoon. All we saw were kites and the military sort-of-thing exhibition. To enjoy this colorful sight, the best time to go there is around 5am. So early!!!

It's almost bedtime but I can't sleep. I don't feel like going to sleep. When I don't have peace of mind, it's difficult to sleep. So painful. I'm thinking about him. I'm thinking about his current situation, his seemingly hopeless situation. The difficulties he had and he have to go through. That's right. I I almost forgot that it has been two years since those dreadful times, but until now it isn't over yet. And things can still get worse over time. Everytime I think about him, and what he's been going through, I can't help myself but break down and cry. The thought that he's been suffering pains my heart so much that sometimes I can't bear to listen to him anymore. The distance that is separating us prevents me from being by his side every time he needs support. I wish there is something I can do to help him other than supporting him emotionally. Unfortunately, even emotional support is sometimes very difficult to give. I always ha...

It's quite a boring day. Nothing much to do. Woke up around 8:30am by a call from Baby. Spent the whole morning surfing the internet - for wedding dresses! Haha! Yeah, wedding dresses. But I'm not getting married and I will not anytime soon. It's just that I am very fascinated with them and decided to take a look at designs that would catch my fancy. Every girl dreams of the day when they will be wearing one! Anyway, I stumble across this rather wonderful and interesting quotation about wedding gowns:  "Real princesses always wear sleeves so why do we all go for strapless? " And I couldn't agree more. Strapless, backless or with low cut neckline wedding gowns are sexy, modern and very flattering but honestly, I think  nowadays we are loosing more that mysterious and ethereal look of the bride. We tend to reveal more and hide less. Personally, I prefer a wedding dress that has a touch of vintage, one that has sleeves or a boat neckline. These styles are real...

I really love this Van and Hitomi painting (from the anime Vision of Escaflowne ) done by French artist Nathalie Roberts. I had this printed from my computer printer and hanged it in my room. Van and Hitomi are my favorite anime couple, and seeing a painting of them showing that after the series they were finally reunited greatly satisfied me. It gives me such a feeling of nostalgia. The painting shows Van and Hitomi, reunited. Aren't they such a cute couple? They are wearing Fanelian traditional costume, which speaks that they are now the rulers of the Kingdom of Fanelia. Hitomi is probably pointing at the sky and the Mystic Moon (or Earth). Perhaps she's giving Van a little geography lesson. ^_^ All credit goes to the creator of this painting, Ms. Nathalie Roberts.

 "If we could read the secret history of our enemies, we should find in each man’s life sorrow and suffering enough to disarm all hostility.” -- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

 Today I went to Trinoma Mall in Quezon City with my brother. He intended to buy a Valentine's gift for his lady-love. Since I was pretty much bored staying in the house for many days, I decided to go with him. Since I will be going to Manila, I decided to cook something for my Sweeie and bring it to him. So I woke up early and cooked kare-kare. Then I took a bath and prepared to go. Since Sweetie had decided to have a day off today, I became excited to see him. We haven't seen each other for two weeks, and I really missed him. Anyway, my brother and I took the bus at 10am and arrived in the mall at 11. We met Sweetie there, and he and I decided to go around the mall just the two of us. I was able to buy a shirt and pants, and it only cost me 500 pesos. So inexpensive! Around 2pm, we met again with my bro and we decided to eat. I've been craving for a Burger King hamburger with fries so I bought a set of that. My brother also. Sweetie ate the kare-kare. Until now I'm s...

 Another poem, dated 2005. It was originally posted in my now-obsolete blog, and I got it reposted here. *** (Ok… I am depressed for a couple of days now. I keep on thinking about one of the most special things I had with me for years and how I lost it together with all its precious content. It is as if I also lost all the beautiful memories I have for a very long time. I still can’t believe it. *sobs*) *** One night, it became sad unbearably In this deep melancholy I recalled the distant past The memory of what was gone forever When everything just fell in full oblivion I recalled the dream of a childhood Thought about all the tears that are shed All the lies that are told in the world Where pointless suffering seems to have no end Blood just spilled and flooded the ground Hate and fear enslave the heart All the beauty seems to fade away Happiness replaced by grief and misery Trust is shattered by doubt Everyone is blinded from the truth Self-sacrifice is a beautiful ...